This has been a time of awakening for me lately; or perhaps a time of stirring in my spirit in relation to almost all facets of my life. Be it work/career, fathership, husbandry, physical, or spiritual awareness; it seems that the conglomeration of the whole are getting major visibility to me and I constantly seem to be evaluating each piece of my being and analyzing what I must do to improve on them in the present as well as the future. I am chasing something, a renewal perhaps or maybe my own personal revelation. I don’t want personal revival. I don’t want to be revived into what I once was. I don’t want to live in an old era of being. I want something new. I want a life changing personal renaissance era. I am “chasing the renaissance.”
Archive for May, 2008
This is way too early to get up. I have started working from 6am - 5pm, Tuesday through Fridays with Mondays off. Having Mondays off is great, but getting up before the sun does royally stinks.
Chilled last night at the Frederick Coffee Co. with one of my good friends and musical cohorts, Mr. J Brown. Jason has just recently relocated back to Maryland and is looking for gigs and worship ventures. He has an album dropping soon, so get your kicks in and book him if you can. One of the nicest guys I have had the pleasure of working with. Visit his myspace site at myspace.com/jasonthebrown.
Jason, look forward to many more evenings of music and hot beverages with you bro. It’s great having you back in Fred-town.
This past weekend I was watching U2’s Rattle and Hum movie on Music HD. First of all, let me just say for the record that I have severely underated U2 and the passion they have. They are hands down, the best rock band ever.
There was this one segment with Bono and the King of Blues, B.B. King that was highlighted. They were rehearsing “When Love Comes To Town”, a collaboration between B.B. and U2. B.B. casually asked Bono if someone could play the chords to which Bono replied that The Edge could take care of that. Then B.B. uttered…yeah “I’m horrible at chords”.
I was stunned and then inspired.
If God has a call on your life, the road there may not be the one that everyone else is traveling and the steps you take will not necessarily be the steps others take. You don’t have to be like someone else and do what they do. Let your creativeness flow and let God show you the way to be what only you can be. Just think, you may be a musical genius without ever learning how to play what every other musician considers paramount.
This time of the year is usually hard for me. I tend to contemplate on a lot of what has happened during the year before and the years before that around the months of April and May. These months have been surrounded by situations such as dealing with big decisions, issues, or just “stuff” that needed to be addressed. Some of these situations were caused by me, such as resigning from my job of 6 years in April 2005; Some were caused by what I believe to be God’s life shaping, such as being laid off from my job in May 2006; and some were caused by people, such as the anguish contemplating whether I will play professionally with prophetic people again due to lack of follow up. There is a shifting that seems to be occuring again. Life is not stable and some things are dying and changing.
Lift up your head because when the old is shed, when the cocoon is broken, when the winter pruning is final, new growth will arise and change will be evident. This is not a time to despair, but a time to contemplate, meditate, and rejoice in all that will come.