Over the past 15 years or so, I have been shaped into a different person then I once was. This is not necessarily a bad thing. I had to let some things go such as depression and the addictions that arose because of it, but there have been other key things that were part of my identity that have dissolved or ceased to say who I am today. You see I found my identity in “things” or “activities” before and not in God. The whole ocean, surfing, sailing, etc. persona was something I grasped on to and did not let go for dear life. When things were bad in the past, I was at the beach, romanticizing the “movie” of my life as I looked on at the waves or as I was entrenched in the saline liquid while surfing until twilight.
I let a lot of that go over these past years. I moved away from the shore, went to College in eastern TN, and relocated to Maryland along the Catoctin Mountains. I have found new things that bring me to God’s creation now, such as fly fishing and just being at the tranquil trout streams. This environment does bring me happiness and contentment.
Since moving to Maryland, God has brought me through many tough lessons, and has taught me to trust completely on him. I had to shed everything that made me who I am/was in order to walk into the new destiny he had for me. I am still changing and will continue, for our walk with God never ends. It is a ride that is incredible, and although painful at times, it is the only real way to live.
What I am seeing now is a new man, but God is bringing back things that shaped me to my remembrance. He is showing me the joy in those things. I am learning that I don’t have to let go of joys that I had before, as they were from God, but just misrouted by me. Now I focus on him, and let him teach and show me how to live extraordinary. I suppose I am saying that God is restoring me to a new being: The man that God created me to be. A passionate person that is learning how to direct his passion in God’s will.
I let a lot of that go over these past years. I moved away from the shore, went to College in eastern TN, and relocated to Maryland along the Catoctin Mountains. I have found new things that bring me to God’s creation now, such as fly fishing and just being at the tranquil trout streams. This environment does bring me happiness and contentment.
Since moving to Maryland, God has brought me through many tough lessons, and has taught me to trust completely on him. I had to shed everything that made me who I am/was in order to walk into the new destiny he had for me. I am still changing and will continue, for our walk with God never ends. It is a ride that is incredible, and although painful at times, it is the only real way to live.
What I am seeing now is a new man, but God is bringing back things that shaped me to my remembrance. He is showing me the joy in those things. I am learning that I don’t have to let go of joys that I had before, as they were from God, but just misrouted by me. Now I focus on him, and let him teach and show me how to live extraordinary. I suppose I am saying that God is restoring me to a new being: The man that God created me to be. A passionate person that is learning how to direct his passion in God’s will.
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